I'm not very good at this (writing a blog), but I try to share bits of my life here from time to time.
Content warning: mental health topics, occasional talk about weight(loss).

Well then. I have a fracture in my wrist and a pink cast. I fell onto my hand a week ago. I’m supposed to keep it on for about three weeks, but I’m heading to Italy in two weeks. Talk about bad luck.

I thought the plantar fasciitis in my foot was getting better, but the pain suddenly turned into sharp, intermittent stabs - it might be a pinched nerve or something (according to Google). Wow, I’m in worse physical shape than ever. I’ve never had any this type of injuries or accidents before, for which I’m certainly grateful :3

The doctor was being a bit of a joker and told me I could just cut the cast off myself when I can’t stand it anymore - so, maybe, it’s not a super serious situation. Still, it would be best to keep it on until the trip.. assuming the trip even happens at all. I’m worried about how big the medical bills will be; my hand was also X-rayed twice, and that will probably be billed separately, too. x___X

It’s all a bit of a question mark - what’s going to happen over these next two weeks? Will my foot hold up? Will my hand start aching from all the typing: will I be able to code anything new? Will I actually make it on the trip? Fingers crossed :3

I booked flight tickets to Italy. Still, I’m not 100% convinced I’ll actually make it there. Accommodation is expensive; I have one place booked, but I don't have to pay for it until the end of the month.

My boyfriend is always baffled by my impulsive purchases, whether it’s flight tickets or electronics. I also bought noise-canceling headphones yesterday, thinking about the flight and a potential overnight stay at the airport.

In the mornings, I feel good about it and would be ready to leave right away, but as the day goes on, my anxiety worsens; eventually, I curl up next to my cat to sleep, thinking, "I don't want to go anywhere."

Now would be the perfect time to travel - before my dentist appointments and before GTA gets released :D I’m not interested in the game myself, but apparently, my boyfriend can't look after the cats from November 19th onwards (or something like that).

I’ve traveled alone before, so that doesn't make me nervous; I love the freedom of deciding exactly what to do and resting whenever I feel like it. I really hope this trip works out.

On another note: I’d like to update the content on this site, not just the resources section. Any ideas on what to add?

Right now, I’m making (or trying to make) as many premium layouts as I can ~ sorry about that. I’ll be creating free layouts in the future too, but right now I need to focus on the paid ones, given the costs of my upcoming trip.

I’d also like to revamp the whole itinerae.shop site; it feels a bit distant and overly polished right now. I’d like it to feel more cozy. :3

My social anxiety, which was at its worst about three weeks ago, eventually led me to set my phone to a mode where no one can call me. I feel much more at ease now knowing I can have some peace and quiet - though, this could cause problems in the long run. I’ve also cut back on other phone usage and notifications.

I don't really know how to live the way one is "supposed" to live here. I’d much rather be alone - out in nature or at home with my cats. I’m not the least bit social (well, okay, seeing people once a week is nice).

We visited a museum last weekend; there were some interesting exhibitions. I’ll post a few photos once I get around to editing them.

I walked 100km in September. Progress! It might not sound like much, but it’s better than during the summer months. :o My leg might not be as sore as it was at the start of summer.

I’ve been looking at flights again, seriously considering booking one. A week-long trip away from here in November, around my birthday, would be really nice. It would be fun to write a travel diary here.

This is the third time I’ve tried to write this blog post. It’s somehow hard to organize my thoughts right now.

A couple of weeks ago, I decided I needed to start making changes. The summer was such a disappointment, mostly due to health concerns. Weight gain, inactivity, lack of energy, and so on.

I decided to stop drinking alcohol for an indefinite period and focus on eating healthier. My sleep quality has already improved a bit.

Apparently, plantar fasciitis isn't going anywhere, so I just have to grit my teeth and stay active anyway. I’ve been going for walks in the forest almost every day lately; getting out the door is the hardest part, but once I’m in the woods, my mind calms down.

I opened layout commissions a week ago. I’m still figuring out the best way to handle them, but let’s see first if anyone is even interested.

The sun is shining, so I’m heading outside soon. ♥ I have to soak up every bit of energy from the sun while I still can. Winters here are rainy, gray, and dark.

Wishing you a lovely day - whoever is reading this. :3

In the last few weeks I have been focusing on creating different layouts, but again with quite varying success. I often start a new project with excitement but I can't finish it anywhere near.

I am now a Neocities supporter. I have recently uploaded all my pictures there so space is starting to run out. I am a bit worried about the Neocities outages that have been happening all over the world lately..?

I also bought another domain because it was so cheap and now I can add it to neocities. Itinerae.shop is already up and running but it desperately needs a new look. I already have one almost finished layout, but at this final stage I have started to wonder if it is suitable for a landing page... hmm this is annoying, I already want to get something new online ! :3

Yesterday we watched the solar eclipse as much as we could. I didn't manage to take any pictures, I didn't have enough equipment for viewing/photographing, everything was already sold out in the shops.

This weekend we're going outside to photograph animals, plants and participate in a rave picnic, I hope it will be fun!

Lately, I’ve been thinking about whether I could actually live abroad someday. The cold / rainy winters are not for me.

Maybe one day I could make enough money by creating websites and working for myself. I also own an apartment, so in the future I could possibly rent it out and get some extra income from it.

I’ve also been thinking about opening commissions, so people could order a custom website made just for them. I still haven’t been brave enough to do it, though.

I’m worried it might become too stressful for me. Answering messages and keeping up with communication has always been a little difficult for me.

Just some thoughts I had today.

Hi. It's been almost two months since my last post. There was also a long(ish) break when I didn't code anything new.

This was probably because I was completely exhausted coding that tricky layout or/and a collapse in my physical/mental well-being.

Nothing serious has happened, just a series of small things, like plantar fasciitis in one foot, I haven't been able to move as much as usual, this has then led to bad moods and weight gain. The wisdom teeth removal operation has also caused anxiety and extra stress.

I haven't been able to enjoy the summer 100%.

There have been some good moments, though. A trip to the seaside with my boyfriend was one of the best. I finally saw a mandarin duck here in Finland and the cutest deer. We've had barbecues outside a few times, listened to live music and stuff like that. There are a couple of concerts coming up this week too.

The climate has been really nice here all summer. On a few days the temperature has reached about +27 degrees Celsius, otherwise it has been a comfortable +20 and not too many rainy days. The rest of Europe has suffered from really hot temperatures.

The coding of layouts has started to go smoothly again, I have enough ideas. It just needs a lot of concentration from me to get something ready to publish. Right now I'm listening to 90's eurodance and trying to finish a dark post-apocalyptic layout.

I want to thank everyone who has left nice messages, used my layouts and supported me, it really means a lot to me. ;__; ♥

I finally finished that layout that I've been working on for what feels like forever. It's been bothering me that this has been unfinished for so long. Now I can focus on easier and more convenient projects again. :')

I could have come up with endless ways to improve this layout and it probably would never have been finished but I decided to just let it be, it's probably just fine the way it is. I don't know, I haven't gotten any feedback on it yet when I published it yesterday.

Summer has officially begun. ♥ The trip to Helsinki was pleasant in every way. I was afraid beforehand that I would be terribly anxious about the large crowds / public transport, but everything went well.

We went to a restaurant to eat, hung out at my friend's place, went to the gig. Negative played a lot of their most popular songs (singles) but there were a few lovely surprises in the set too. After the gig we went to a bar for beers. Went to bed early, the Flixbus back to my hometown left early.

I haven't written a blog in a long time, so I'd like to write some kind of life update at this point. I'm still struggling with what I dare to say here if someone I know finds my website.

I started filling out a journal / calendar in Neocities last month but after a couple of weeks I got bored, not really surprising.

There have been good and bad coding days, sometimes I can quickly put together a layout, sometimes nothing seems to work and I lose my nerve. :D I don't know if I can create a summer look for the itinerae or if we'll just stick with this old one. I still like this tho. :3

The "win98" style layout that I've talked about before is one damn project that will last forever. I'm just not happy with it and it's so difficult to edit since it's so "complicated", I wonder if it'll ever be finished. :3

In life outside the computer I've been doing quite well. Nothing too bad, my depression test scores are high, but that's nothing new. I've been outside a lot photographing birds and waking nature, spending time with friends and my boyfriend.

I had a "rehabilitation" period where I met with a physiotherapist, a social worker, a doctor, a psychologist... it was pretty tough but I survived.

Next week I'm going to Helsinki to visit a friend and to a gig of a band I was a fan of in 2003-2007, oh the nostalgia when all the bands from that time are now making a comeback. :')

Hello March. The temperature has been above zero and the snow has started to melt. It's much nicer to go for walks when it's not so cold. I shouldn't celebrate too early though, this is Finland, so winter could come back ten more times.

I went to photograph the icy sea and sunset over the weekend. I could make it a goal to do a longer trip like this every week. I ate candy on the rocks by the sea and froze a bit when the sun went down. I didn't see any birds or other wildlife this time.

I've been coding a "win98" layout and one other cute layout project. I realized that I can't use the original win98 icons / logo, wouldn't that be illegal? Because it's a layout that will be sold on ko-fi and not a personal project? I don't know, but it's kind of eaten up my enthusiasm for getting the layout done.

I'd have to look for alternative icons somewhere. For me, finding graphics is often the hardest part of making layouts.

I updated the layout of itinerae a bit. I added a banner, an external update log, a couple of new things to the sidebar. We'll see later in the spring if I change the colors too.

I'm going on a Turku-Stockholm cruise next weekend, a nice change for everyday life. ^^

I deleted some of my old blog entries when I started to come to the conclusion that they contained too much of my personal stuff to share with everyone.

I would like to write about my life as accurately as possible, but on the other hand it makes me anxious. I'm afraid that people who know me in real life will find me here and get too much information. I wouldn't mind writing about everything if I was sure that only strangers would read my stuff. :')

I've recently added Itinerae to FB, Instagram, Pinterest, Bluesky and X, so there's a greater chance that someone who knows me will find here.

Normally I hardly ever use facebook or x, now I just wanted to add Itinerae to these too so that I could advertise my paid layouts in as many places as possible. I'm still not in a very good financial situation. Would also be wonderful to be able to save money for a trip abroad.

The extreme cold weather has been going on for weeks now. -_- Spring, please come soon.

I think I got an explanation for the strange lab results. Apparently I have an iron deficiency.

I haven't made much progress with the windows98 layout, I don't know why it feels so difficult to do, compared to other layouts. I'm also slowly starting to code a new layout for Itinerae, I think I need something fresh and green (again). ♥

I'm very happy that the holidays are over and we're heading towards spring. Itinerae is almost two years old and I now have almost 200 followers on Neocities. :') Thank you! Also thanks to everyone who has bought layouts / supported me on Ko-fi!

I'm currently working on a windows98 style layout. I'm not sure if it will be free for a limited time, completely free, or paid. It's a bit complicated, I want to be sure that it works properly if I'm going to put it up for sale. :3 Probably takes weeks or even months for me to get this published. :o

I had an ultrasound a couple of days ago. We were just looking for a reason for some strange lab results. Nothing was found though. I'm not sure if I'll get a referral to Hematology yet.

I did a 15 kilometer "hike" after a long time, it felt good. ♥ I spotted mostly familiar / common birds and took pictures of them. One wow moment was when I saw a Eurasian Nuthatch (Sitta Europaea), I'm not sure if that's its official name, in Finnish the name is even more stupid: PÄHKINÄNAKKELI. I'll post pictures of the birds later.

The year has started with freezing cold weather. At its worst, it was -22 degrees celsius. At least there is sunlight and the days are slowly but surely getting longer. Feeling clumsy when I have to wear many layers of clothes and I walk like a penguin.

That's all for now, byee. :)